Have any of you asked to be released from a calling? (For those of you not LDS, a calling is something that the bishop of your congregation asks you to do. It can be teaching kids in the primary or leading the music in sacrament meeting, anything at all. Usually it is based upon inspiration, but occasionally desperation is key.)
I have. Once. I felt like I was drowning and couldn't handle that "one more thing" to stress me out. It was a calling that took me out of Relief Society (the women's meeting) at a time that I really needed that spiritual nourishment and help. So the Bishop release me and that was that. Until now.
I've been called to the same. exact. calling. Now is an even worse time than before. I know that there may never be a "good time" for this calling, and that I should just do it and deal with the extra stress and misery it gives me. But I honestly feel picked on. Even after talking to the Bishop and praying, I still feel picked on.
What do you do? Have you (those who are LDS) ever had a Bishop that you just didn't click with and felt like he really just didn't care about you? And just so you know, I base that on more than just him calling me to the same position twice after asking for a release. I just don't want to go into that here on the blog. Email if you want specifics.
Praying so far has left me empty of answers or peace, so don't bother suggesting that, I'm still working on it.
Right now I think I just feel like I need to know I'm not alone in having a difficult Bishop.
A friend gave me a blessing. Nathan felt a little too close to the situation to do it, so we had our friend Ben do the actual blessing. Nathan opted not to tell him about the situation (and I'm 100% sure Ben has been in finals or studying all day instead of perusing my blog). I feel a lot better. I'm not excited about the calling, but I know I can do it now and that the additional stress won't hurt the baby. I don't think my specific calling is what the Lord had in mind, but I do feel that He wants me serving more than my current calling was requiring of me. So I'm ok.
I also went to the doctor today to check on the baby before we leave for my sister in-law's wedding. We are 99% sure we know the gender. The ultrasound wasn't even supposed to be for that, but we just happened to get a good look. You can vote what you think on my sidebar:)